You all might be wondering what this is all about. Well basically its just me letting myself get carried away at the keyboard. Thats it. Hopefully something worth while might actually come out while i aimlessly bang at the keys. My topics will vary but i hope you enjoy. Peace
On Love
Love- such a small word, but as you all already know it can fuck up your life or make it truly amazing. Thats what i find fascinating about it. I'm serious, just for one second, think about it. You can love, and be loved back, which will cause your life to undergo serious happiness, feelings of finally wanting to get out of bed in the morning, and the amazing fulfillment that life is finally worth living. Then, on the other hand, if you love and are not loved back, you can slip into terrible depression, crazed feelings of contemplating suicide, and for some, totally withdrawing from everything and listening to the saddest songs you can find, alone, in your room. This is the paradox of love itself. I mean we all want love. Who doesn't? But the responsibilities are endless and love comes with heartache-always. Now i know some of you must be thinking that I'm crazy and I really have no clue what i'm talking about. Thats fair to say- maybe you think "what the hell is tim talking about?? he' s never even felt TRUE love, and he's trying to analyze it???- what a dick!". These feelings and thoughts are understandable. I mean, who's to say that i'm an expert on the matter???- not me. I've already told you i'm not the all-powerful authority on love and i'm not even here to tell you how u should view love. I'm just here to theorize and discuss what i have felt and the knowledge i have gained from playing the game of love many a time myself. And to be honest with you, every time it has been the same old story. I meet a girl, someone who when i first meet seems to be completely amazing and we both are tickled to death by each other so we go out. The first month or so is heaven, literally a dream come true for me, it seems i can't get enough of the current female in question. Movies, cuddling, kissing, fooling around...the whole nine yards. But, then the maddness ensues. Soon she calls me up and gives that age-old excuse "sorry...the feeling's gone...bye" and thats the end of the story. Of coarse, you know a few monthes later the talking begins and maybe we'll hang out again, but nothing ever fully patches up. I don't understand it...did i miss something here??? I mean shouldn't we be required to at least get a reasonable explaination for why "the feeling is gone"??? I mean how the hell did that happen? My guess is that after a while, when the relationship is in full-swing, the girls get scared of commitment and oh dare i say; LOVE. So this one thing that we're all searching for...once we attain it....we run because we're afraid to give all of ourselves to someone or we're scared of what might happen. Thats bullshit. Anyways i must be going...thanks for listening and i hope i have caused you to look at the world differently because of what you have read. At the very least i hope your view of love is now different and complete in that you realize that every relationship should be taken seriously and needs work from both sides.....don't let the "feeling"...slip away.
-Tim Pozzi (Dec. 27, 2002)
On Life & Love- By Megan Verhey
Ok, ok I know I'm only 15. Thats exactly what you're thinking. How could she possibly be thinking about that when there's school, homework, extra curricular activities blah, blah, blah I understand, yes. BUT there is a huge but in this and its not just mine. This charade has gone on far too long. Sure, I mean I go to an arts school and I was prepared for the circumstances I had to face, but I wasn't aware the circumstances were this dire! The whining and the complaining have gone too far, but not far enough to have my voice heard. I watch all the other girls at other schools with boyfriends or even just tiny flings but what do I get? The last piece of action I got was at a party LAST MARCH! (Almost a year ago) and now nothing? Thats it? How can it stop that fast? Impossible u say? No! It's clearly not! I feel like one giant spider web. I mean I'm not the most attractive girl you'll meet but I'm not completely degrading to the human eye. I'm not a board and I'm not a rubber band but I am willing to put out if I feel necessary. Where are you? All the boys? Stupid school. I love you to bits but you lack men. My main necessity. My source of life. If I don't do something soon, I think I'm going to scream.
